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Wednesday, May 6, 2015

Struggle

I'm back in the gym and trying to play roller derby but having absolute hell overall. Lots of depression issues due to my bipolar. These are made worse because I am facing losing my health insurance. I can't afford the premiums I will have to pay plus my meds and appts. and I have no idea how I'm going to handle all of it. Essentially I am barely functioning and JD is doing a lot to help me keep it together. I feel like I am letting my derby team down, myself down, JD down, my job down, and basically turning out useless to everyone. I'm also running the front desk at work this week and that is a whole other level of stress for me. Also I haven't been to the gym in days because I have been so depressed. *sigh* So...yeah...things are a mess and I don't know how to deal or what to do. Also, mobile posting sucks.